MonkeyBrains
11-29-2002, 01:19 AM
I’ve been wandering around then net the last few hours looking here and there, visiting places I haven’t been for a while, ok so I’ve been very unproductive & avoiding work in the best way I know how.. Click your mouse every now & again, tap on the keys & stare at the screen thoughtfully & people think you’re working even if you’re looking at porn.. I’ve been doing it all week, well the time I’ve been here anyway.. I’ve had most of this week off with a Viral Infection, so that’s way not fun & I’m still not feeling grand.. Anyway I digress..
I went over to the Stone Temple Pilots site, haven’t been there for ages & thought it was time to have a look and wasting time as I am I thought I’d peruse the Photo Gallery.. And now I have no idea what I was saying.. I’m guessing there was something that I found overly interesting in the STP Photo Gallery, or maybe not, maybe I didn’t like what I saw.. Maybe I’ll continue to digress.. There was a section, completely unrelated to the PG, in Scott’s bio where he mentions painting his house, which made me think about painting my room again.. I’ve had an on – off intense passion about painting my room.. I think I’m really not into it tho, seen as I’ve been thinking about it for about 6 months.. I’m renting & live with my land lord so it’s all cool if I do it.. I’m just into moving on at the moment, so I can’t see the point of painting it, I know if I go away I’m not going to go back there & then it’d be a bit of a waste.. Although I’m sure Jason would love it when he finally gets back from his Over Seas Odyssey.. Mind you Scott’s painting comment was made in 2000, I wonder if it happened??
I was also just thinking about getting a large, really, really large Tattoo.. I had a dream last night, I don’t dream very often well not that I remember anyway, but occasionally I have really vivid dreams that I remember sections of clearly, sometimes it’s the whole thing, last night it was just a bit of it.. I was in a big empty room, sitting in a chair right in the middle of the room, it was a wooden chair and really rough, like it had splinters & the paint was peeling all that kind of stuff.. I was looking down at myself, and my sitting down self leant over & hugged it’s knees & I had this massive big tatt on my back (not sure why my back was exposed, I don’t think the rest of me was naked..) And it was a larger version of the one that’s already there but it covered my whole back.. I have a symbol from the A Perfect Circle cd cover on my lower back, it’s the triangular symbol that’s associated with the song ‘3 Libras’.. Anyway I still had the small one and it was surrounded by this much larger one, there was like a small border separating them.. It just looked really, I don’t know, right I guess..
I’m now trying to work out if I should go to the pub after work tonight.. I think if I go down there & have a few good shots of something lethal it might just kill the bugs.. But it probably wont & I’ll just end up getting rolling drunk & feeling even worse than I do now in the morning..
Last night I realised that my closest friend & I aren’t as close as we used to be.. no real reason, we just drifted.. It feels very peculiar to actually come to that realisation.. You kind of know that there’s a distance between you, but you try hard & hope that it’ll go away, and then one day one of you says something & you just look at each other & just know that it’s gone and nothing you can do will bring it back.. I miss him already.. Well maybe not him, we’ll always be there for each other, it just wont be the same.. I guess I just miss what we had.. It’s left me a bit detached from everyone else too.. I looked back at my friends past & present and wondered what some of it was all for.. Why I still stay in contact with people that I don’t really have anything to say to any more.. And the people I thought I knew, I don’t really know them at all..
Anyway I think that’s enough time wasting for today.. Yep, 15 mins to pack up & then I’m gone..
Good weekends all..
J
I went over to the Stone Temple Pilots site, haven’t been there for ages & thought it was time to have a look and wasting time as I am I thought I’d peruse the Photo Gallery.. And now I have no idea what I was saying.. I’m guessing there was something that I found overly interesting in the STP Photo Gallery, or maybe not, maybe I didn’t like what I saw.. Maybe I’ll continue to digress.. There was a section, completely unrelated to the PG, in Scott’s bio where he mentions painting his house, which made me think about painting my room again.. I’ve had an on – off intense passion about painting my room.. I think I’m really not into it tho, seen as I’ve been thinking about it for about 6 months.. I’m renting & live with my land lord so it’s all cool if I do it.. I’m just into moving on at the moment, so I can’t see the point of painting it, I know if I go away I’m not going to go back there & then it’d be a bit of a waste.. Although I’m sure Jason would love it when he finally gets back from his Over Seas Odyssey.. Mind you Scott’s painting comment was made in 2000, I wonder if it happened??
I was also just thinking about getting a large, really, really large Tattoo.. I had a dream last night, I don’t dream very often well not that I remember anyway, but occasionally I have really vivid dreams that I remember sections of clearly, sometimes it’s the whole thing, last night it was just a bit of it.. I was in a big empty room, sitting in a chair right in the middle of the room, it was a wooden chair and really rough, like it had splinters & the paint was peeling all that kind of stuff.. I was looking down at myself, and my sitting down self leant over & hugged it’s knees & I had this massive big tatt on my back (not sure why my back was exposed, I don’t think the rest of me was naked..) And it was a larger version of the one that’s already there but it covered my whole back.. I have a symbol from the A Perfect Circle cd cover on my lower back, it’s the triangular symbol that’s associated with the song ‘3 Libras’.. Anyway I still had the small one and it was surrounded by this much larger one, there was like a small border separating them.. It just looked really, I don’t know, right I guess..
I’m now trying to work out if I should go to the pub after work tonight.. I think if I go down there & have a few good shots of something lethal it might just kill the bugs.. But it probably wont & I’ll just end up getting rolling drunk & feeling even worse than I do now in the morning..
Last night I realised that my closest friend & I aren’t as close as we used to be.. no real reason, we just drifted.. It feels very peculiar to actually come to that realisation.. You kind of know that there’s a distance between you, but you try hard & hope that it’ll go away, and then one day one of you says something & you just look at each other & just know that it’s gone and nothing you can do will bring it back.. I miss him already.. Well maybe not him, we’ll always be there for each other, it just wont be the same.. I guess I just miss what we had.. It’s left me a bit detached from everyone else too.. I looked back at my friends past & present and wondered what some of it was all for.. Why I still stay in contact with people that I don’t really have anything to say to any more.. And the people I thought I knew, I don’t really know them at all..
Anyway I think that’s enough time wasting for today.. Yep, 15 mins to pack up & then I’m gone..
Good weekends all..
J