Immortal
09-28-2002, 06:54 PM
"when in danger"
9/28/02
3:35pm
i don't do well when compared with others,
i don't share much when it comes to souls uncovered
and forgetting any semblence of god vs. nature
i'm staring at blank keys, revolting when in danger
i'm stumbling, i'm dying on the inside tonight.
i've never been one to keep emotions in check
never been one who could take a pill and wake up in the morning
the dry-mouth disease i'm feeling could kill me while i sleep
and yet i fall to slumber every night with you in my dreams.
unilaterally speaking, i'm hiding everything from you
and everything i'm about to tell you, i hope you know it isn't true.
but for everything we've ever wanted, i've never wanted you
just wanted to be happy. wanted that for you.
when we find ourselves at crossings and we don't know where to turn
i find solace in the vacuum that is nothingness
the nothingness of you. and me.
i breathe heavy from the smoke i breathe heavy from the eyes
i just hope you realize.
i just hope you realize.
that these scratches on my arms will fade, the tears on your cheek will dry
but this love we cannot talk about
surely will not die.
3:38pm
zds
"evocation"
3:43pm
i lose track of dates, hours and times
i lean over, crouched, with nothing in my mind
because it's all fallen out and i'm typing from the knees
the chair is forgotten, it's much simpler with these
locks & wooden chains to do away with yourself
and i keep hanging motionless on words painted stealth.
conniptions and marketplace, a liar's retreat
where dust floats on the bottom and the rafters hang with sheets
perhaps when there is nothing, it's when we bond the most
but in evidence and contradiction, it's where we find the ghosts
in the dark recesses of error-loving minds
the white-blooded soul with wisdom to find
my eyes seem to speak, they've been awake for straight days
can't bear to repeat what's been astounding in ways
that were unbearable to say in the very same sentence
as whatever was said in the last bit of mentioned
stuffed, silly suits and other bizarre lies
tied to the mast like ulysses, crying
"let me go, please, mercy, let me go from this ship"
and while ulysses was tempted, i'm just tired of this shit.
3:48pm
zds
9/28/02
3:35pm
i don't do well when compared with others,
i don't share much when it comes to souls uncovered
and forgetting any semblence of god vs. nature
i'm staring at blank keys, revolting when in danger
i'm stumbling, i'm dying on the inside tonight.
i've never been one to keep emotions in check
never been one who could take a pill and wake up in the morning
the dry-mouth disease i'm feeling could kill me while i sleep
and yet i fall to slumber every night with you in my dreams.
unilaterally speaking, i'm hiding everything from you
and everything i'm about to tell you, i hope you know it isn't true.
but for everything we've ever wanted, i've never wanted you
just wanted to be happy. wanted that for you.
when we find ourselves at crossings and we don't know where to turn
i find solace in the vacuum that is nothingness
the nothingness of you. and me.
i breathe heavy from the smoke i breathe heavy from the eyes
i just hope you realize.
i just hope you realize.
that these scratches on my arms will fade, the tears on your cheek will dry
but this love we cannot talk about
surely will not die.
3:38pm
zds
"evocation"
3:43pm
i lose track of dates, hours and times
i lean over, crouched, with nothing in my mind
because it's all fallen out and i'm typing from the knees
the chair is forgotten, it's much simpler with these
locks & wooden chains to do away with yourself
and i keep hanging motionless on words painted stealth.
conniptions and marketplace, a liar's retreat
where dust floats on the bottom and the rafters hang with sheets
perhaps when there is nothing, it's when we bond the most
but in evidence and contradiction, it's where we find the ghosts
in the dark recesses of error-loving minds
the white-blooded soul with wisdom to find
my eyes seem to speak, they've been awake for straight days
can't bear to repeat what's been astounding in ways
that were unbearable to say in the very same sentence
as whatever was said in the last bit of mentioned
stuffed, silly suits and other bizarre lies
tied to the mast like ulysses, crying
"let me go, please, mercy, let me go from this ship"
and while ulysses was tempted, i'm just tired of this shit.
3:48pm
zds