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[bluecow]

well... i haven't been around here in awhile... so, now i'm at home... classes at penn state start tomorrow and i'm in pittsburgh because in 4 days i'm going to germany. the weird thing is i'm not at all excited right now... i'm really really scared... another thing is... i found this boy, and i've only been going out with him now for 5 months, and yesterday he asked me to marry him... and i said yes... and i'm only 20 and i know that's really young to be saying yes to such questions... it just felt right though... i dont know... i just like him way too much and my saying yes to that just seemed like some kind of security... a guarantee that this relationship wouldnt end because of me being in germany (i'll be there for a year by the way...) so that's part of the reason the whole germany thing is so scary... also because i've realized i hate being alone... not only without him, but i'll be without all my friends from school... i dont know anyone at all in this town i'll be in and i'm terrible at meeting people, especially now that i'll have to be speaking german all the time... and i'm going to get there saturday morning at 7am (1am here...) and have to find a train from frankfurt to marburg then a taxi from the train station to where ever it is that i'm supposed to check in to the dorm that i'm living in... all while lugging my massive suitcase stuffed full of a years worth of crap... i've also started with the panicked thinking of "i can't speak german!"... regretting a summer spent playing tetris rather than studying german... and i have no money and my parents keep yelling at me about that because they don't understand how i spent the summer working full time as a cleaning lady and ended up with less money than i started with in the beginning of the summer... of course they somehow dont think that maybe it went towards food and rent... hmmm... i'm very confused/ nervous/ tired/ etc right now... i think i just need to go to sleep.

[_om_]

germany for a year? that is really exciting. you will have a lot of fun. my brother went and didn't want to come back, he enjoyed it that much. it will give you time to think about this marriage decision too. you need to calm down and hold off on this marriage thing because you are jumping into it more out of fear of loneliness than anything else. and it seems like you know that its probably not a good reason to get hitched. go to germany for a year. you will meet people and make friends. I went to a few places in germany and found the people to be pretty polite and nice so that won't be an issue. take a deep breath and go with the flow. good luck. and take lots and lots of pictures. and be social.


om1

[yer ardy]

20 is far too young to commit to
marriage....
there's a huge difference between 20 and 25...HUGE

revisit that marriage thing in your late 20's....
there's plenty of time.....



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yeah, riiiight..i ~almost~ believe you...

[reallygroovN]

wow

what om said, x2 /images/smile.gif

you will do fine in germany. since i studied german for many years, i always wanted to go there (just because i studied it for many years does in NO WAY mean that i can speak the dang language - i just needed it for my degree). its a great experience...and, heck, you can stay your room and mess around on the internet just like at home and you would never even know that you were in another country...aside from the banner ads in german.

grab a beer and a sausage, put on yer leiderhosen and yodel a bar or two of Alive /images/wink.gif /images/cool.gif and then let us all know how you are doing.

bon voyage (oh, and dont forget the adivan for the plane trip and when traveling always go to the bathroom in a hotel (they are the nicest)!

[csmooth24]

go...have fun...and think about things...you have a year to grow...

~wanna make out?