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03-17-2002, 09:55 PM
plunk my butt down right here and load a bowl of green for the occasion. i keep my weed in a baggie in a basket that holds my incense in a kitchen cupboard.... last week i tossed a few candles in that basket. today my weed tastes a little floral-ish. /images/crazy.gif
did you know that you shouldn't smoke using a lighter? i mean, duh, that only makes sense- you don't want to be drawing butane into your lungs. i don't know why i never heard that before, or had that thought myself before. my genius ex-drug addict friend recently got on my ass for smoking weed using a lighter. and then for not letting the sulphar? sulfar? burn off the match first. doh! "i was an addict, but i was a healthy addict" he told me. I miss that crazy a-rab tonight.
i dropped asher off with his dad tonight... this was our "short week" together, as he calls it... we do 3 days with me, 4 days with him, 4 days with me, three days with him... so i won't have him back until Thursday evening after work. He's grown quite fond of me lately.... it's heartwarming. I miss the littler bugger when he's away.... there was a time when i didn't, but i do now. motherhood is no easy role, people. a few of us here know- nan, cath, ards, p-girl, share... you girls rock. /images/laugh.gif.... motherhood has been no easy role for me, which anyone who knew me in my early twenties would find unbelievable- hell, i worked as a live in nanny for a year from 21-22, that's how into it i was.
having an unexpected pregnancy was tough- i had this image of how my life was going to go and that blew everything wide open, but i think having the child of a man i wasn't in love with was harder for me to swallow.
i think tho, it might well be the reason Asher has turned out to be such a remarkable kid. each of us had good to give someone... we just didn't like giving it to each other, so Asher received it all. lucky kid? i guess that remains to be seen. he seems pretty well adjusted about our having split up, either that or he's doing an incredible job of hiding it because from what i sense, he's a happy kid. Happy kids grow into happy adults, and isn't this all any mother wants?
so yeah, i miss the little shit when he's gone, but it also means i'm going to have to wait four days to start the next chapter in Harry Potter!!! yes, i am a self proclaimed Harry Potter geek. What fabulous stories! I consider these books the modern day Chronicals of Narnia and that's saying something coming from a person for whom "The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe" remains her all time favorite book.
okay.... gosh isn't it fun when i am stoned? you get to wander all over my brain with me /images/wink.gif hehe... (where is kate when i need her?!) ... so i was just thinking about some of the "conflicts" that have whipped up around here lately, and dudes- look at my personality profile, i hope you realize the way i communicate my opinions is just one aspect of me. i can be particularly sharped tongued when it comes to battling between what i believe to be right and wrong. i've always been this way- does that make me a bad or mean spirited person? no. I've got a big heart.... those who really know me know that it encompasses this entire planet. THAT is why i speak with the fervor that i do. I want great things for the people on this planet and i see a whole lot of bullshit fucking that up. That is insanely frustrating for me. Just stop the fucking bullshit and live the way that feels most natural to us. It shouldn't be so hard for us to do.
so, yeah, i can come across as a MAJOR BITCH and I'm really fine with that. because i know that that part of me is but a small percentage of a rather complex whole that plays its' part when it's called upon.
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"My mom likes chocolate and Pearl Jam."~ Asher, 2-9-2002
did you know that you shouldn't smoke using a lighter? i mean, duh, that only makes sense- you don't want to be drawing butane into your lungs. i don't know why i never heard that before, or had that thought myself before. my genius ex-drug addict friend recently got on my ass for smoking weed using a lighter. and then for not letting the sulphar? sulfar? burn off the match first. doh! "i was an addict, but i was a healthy addict" he told me. I miss that crazy a-rab tonight.
i dropped asher off with his dad tonight... this was our "short week" together, as he calls it... we do 3 days with me, 4 days with him, 4 days with me, three days with him... so i won't have him back until Thursday evening after work. He's grown quite fond of me lately.... it's heartwarming. I miss the littler bugger when he's away.... there was a time when i didn't, but i do now. motherhood is no easy role, people. a few of us here know- nan, cath, ards, p-girl, share... you girls rock. /images/laugh.gif.... motherhood has been no easy role for me, which anyone who knew me in my early twenties would find unbelievable- hell, i worked as a live in nanny for a year from 21-22, that's how into it i was.
having an unexpected pregnancy was tough- i had this image of how my life was going to go and that blew everything wide open, but i think having the child of a man i wasn't in love with was harder for me to swallow.
i think tho, it might well be the reason Asher has turned out to be such a remarkable kid. each of us had good to give someone... we just didn't like giving it to each other, so Asher received it all. lucky kid? i guess that remains to be seen. he seems pretty well adjusted about our having split up, either that or he's doing an incredible job of hiding it because from what i sense, he's a happy kid. Happy kids grow into happy adults, and isn't this all any mother wants?
so yeah, i miss the little shit when he's gone, but it also means i'm going to have to wait four days to start the next chapter in Harry Potter!!! yes, i am a self proclaimed Harry Potter geek. What fabulous stories! I consider these books the modern day Chronicals of Narnia and that's saying something coming from a person for whom "The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe" remains her all time favorite book.
okay.... gosh isn't it fun when i am stoned? you get to wander all over my brain with me /images/wink.gif hehe... (where is kate when i need her?!) ... so i was just thinking about some of the "conflicts" that have whipped up around here lately, and dudes- look at my personality profile, i hope you realize the way i communicate my opinions is just one aspect of me. i can be particularly sharped tongued when it comes to battling between what i believe to be right and wrong. i've always been this way- does that make me a bad or mean spirited person? no. I've got a big heart.... those who really know me know that it encompasses this entire planet. THAT is why i speak with the fervor that i do. I want great things for the people on this planet and i see a whole lot of bullshit fucking that up. That is insanely frustrating for me. Just stop the fucking bullshit and live the way that feels most natural to us. It shouldn't be so hard for us to do.
so, yeah, i can come across as a MAJOR BITCH and I'm really fine with that. because i know that that part of me is but a small percentage of a rather complex whole that plays its' part when it's called upon.
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"My mom likes chocolate and Pearl Jam."~ Asher, 2-9-2002