one night seven years ago.....

[Immortal]

....(give or take), i was awake, in the room, when my parents were mating. they didn't know it, so don't hold it against them. it was a hotel room, and one of their last nights together before the move. it was a goodbye of sorts, "one more for the road." sometimes i see that as what makes me how i am.

TITLE low-fi AUTHOR zds DATE 12-13-00

she doesn't know what to think of me, and i'm the same as her
makes me wonder if it's really true, or maybe just a lie.
i told myself to get a back-up, maybe find another
in case of theft or miscommunication, in case she said goodbye.
and now i don't know who to blame
myself, the pope, or you
i've put my family all to shame
uttering words that were not true.
to say you hate is to say you'd kill
i'll never say the word again
to live a life with no dollar bills
is to live a life without friends.
just because you're powerful, you won't get a brand new car
and just in case you're wealthy, better take me away real far.
i'm surprised to know your secrets,
alarmed to hear the tales
fortunate to remember the laughter
starving enough to eat a whale..
and now i don't know who to blame
myself, the pope, or you
i've put my family all to shame
uttering words that were not true.




..and a special happy belated birthday to brokenarrow...

[Smirks]

Zach....

I hate cause you any trouble, but could you please try to cut the subject length down on your posts?

Thanks....

[brokenarrow]

Zach.....we wouldn't hold that against them. Alot of my friends growing up had similar experiences, I never did, since I had no Dad.

I liked this piece......I had a hard time understanding one part though....I re-read it, and still didn't get it....perhaps you could explain.....
"to live a life with no dollar bills
is to live a life without friends..."

does that mean that the person feels that without money he or she wouldn't have friends? That it's a false friendship to begin with?
I hope it's not wrong for me to ask./images/smile.gif


Thank you Zach for the Birthday wishes!/images/smile.gif

[Immortal]

hah, yeah Smirks... i was just waiting for a little word from you. i expected it on this one. sorry to cause trouble... i was just seeing how far i could go :)

[Ger]

more fine words...........thanks

But the part about mating parents got me thinking about the times when our kids became "aware" of what was going on in the bed. Decided to tell our son that we were just having some love. So one day I had some women visitors arrive while we were indisposed. He answered the door & when they asked for me, he said "they'll be here in a minute, they're just coming to a love"!!!!!! We laffed at that. (Now where would he get that coming part from......) Another time our daughter walked in on us, laughing about her dad's bouncing bum! Kids, they say the darndest things. Am I out of line with this, Smirks? It's all about life, I ain't lyin'.

*grin*
Ger

*All is Love, Love is All*

[Immortal]

yes, brokenarrow.. you had it right. the "to live a life with no dollar bills/is to live a life without friends" line is relating to how with some people, if you're not in the same financial structure as them, it's impossible to associate.

a night later, i'm not sure what i think of this piece.. it's not my greatest, but by far not my worst... somewhere in the middle, i guess. and i don't know what made me write what i did in the subject line.. it didn't originally have anything to do with the poem itself. but reading them together, i see correlations. weird. glad you liked it though, brokenarrow... hope you had a nice birthday a few days ago

[brokenarrow]

I did Immortal...it was a very nice day...mellow!

I had a feeling that was what the line was about....I know too well what that is like, especially as I get older. I find that certain people need these things, status, money etc...to feel excepted. The strange thing is, they lose sight of everything else around them...they forget what it was like to not have anything...hence, they begin acting like the people they were mimicking and shun regular folks or look down their noses at them....
it's like a vicious circle,,,,one that I wouldn't want to get caught up in.....
I've encountered people like this over the last few years. I quietly feel badly for them...

Have a good evening Zach!/images/smile.gif