when you have convinced yourself that you're in love with someone, there is no easy way out.

[Immortal]

UNTITLED: 12/1/00

i wish i could hold myself for ransom, just to see how much people would pay.
wish i could lock myself in a broom closet, and stay there each and every day
i wish i could starve myself, to see how long it is until i'm fed
wish i could walk away from everything, leaving only what i've said
i wish i could drive away the bad things, make you live your life in peace
wish that freedom could pass by your door, and maybe stop next to your feet.
i wish that eloquence wasn't such a hot commodity
wish it wasn't easily traded, like goddamned christianity
i wish that everything wasn't anything, and that nothing was something too
wish that love and envy weren't hand in hand, with green fading into blue
i wish that i could smell you once more, just a brief moment now and again
wish that i didn't feel so bad about sometimes not being a friend.
i wish that there was some way i could make you change your mind
wish that things could change, sooner than "in time."
i wish love was easy, wish it wasn't such a drag
wish it wasn't fucked up or complicated, wish i could just play tag
i wish we all could go back to kindergarden, to learn everything once more
wish that you would love me better than i ever could before.

zds

[Immortal]

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[anescence]

I can remember a time, well several times actually ,when I was in love with someone who did not return that love.Just thinking about those times causes me pain,even though it was long ago.
It's all state of mind.....yes but it hurts in your heart.

[brokenarrow]

:~(

That's my tear for your pain Immortal.
I wish I could say words that would make the pain go away.....but sometimes, I wonder....
are we made to feel pain in order to appreciate beauty? I've felt so much pain in my life...physical, mental......but when I come across beauty....my eyes are wide open to it....my heart soars with gratitude and love. It could be something as simple as seeing a flock of Canadian geese flying in a 'V' making their way down south for the winter.
I'll see them sometimes....and my heart soars reallising I've just been given a gift....to just see them. So many things make me flush with love.

Open your eyes to all of the beauty around you....
The beauty inside of you.....
Love is a state of mind.....it can go any way we want it to. Have it go in a good direction....you're so passionate....take that and look at it as a gift my friend.....to be able to feel the way you do......
Positivety......(is that a word?) don't know if it is, but it's for you!

did that even make sense?

[PJMom]

This is one of your best ones...I love this!

And I'm with you on the love stuff...wishing it was easy. It's not and even though I love many, the love of one is not easy. I guess I've finally come to that point in life where I will be alone and I'm happy with that now. For the first time, I'm comfortable without a significant other. It took a while to get here too....