Immortal
11-15-2000, 09:00 PM
"today just disappears.."
regained a friend today. such a great friend to have once again. the best i've ever had, really..and the best i ever will have. she's so perfect in every way..a complement each other in every way necessary. took a hiatus from each other for a couple months, to sort out individual lives..but it seems our paths have crossed again, just like we always knew they would. in a way, it was pearl jam that brought us back together again. the seattle shows gave us something to talk about. thank you pearl jam, for ending the 2 months and a day in which i couldn't hear myself talk. she was down today, however, as we all are sometimes, and i had the opportunity to help her out. sometimes it's nice to feel wanted, to feel loved.
these past couple of weeks we've been studying poetry in my American Literature class. it pisses me off, analyzing someone's work like that.. so before class today i wrote "POEMS ARE NOT MEANT TO BE DISSECTED. -ZDS-" on the whiteboard at the front of the class. the teacher, a real hard-ass southern import, was not too pleased at the sight. it stayed up on the board though, probably just because she's anti-censorship and all that jazz. she never writes on the damn board anyway.
i've been wondering what it takes to become human. whether it's an inherent trait, or if you have to find it somehow. that might not make much sense, but in the name of complete honesty, hardly anything i ever make much sense in the way that it was intended. that's life.
nobody expects perfection. i just want to live my life..
i wrote down the lyrics to NIN's "HURT" today...i'm going to give them to a departing friend in the morning.
i mentioned her in my post yesterday..'the friend that just wasn't meant to be'. well..a week ago today, i was at work when one of her friends came in. she asked if i had a minute to talk, and since i wasn't busy, we walked out to the parking lot. for the next fifteen minutes i was bitched at by a girl who was biased in every single way against me, without even being able to get a word in edgewise to defend myself. stupid teenage girls.
fuck high school, too. it's all bullshit. the class i mentioned above.. American Literature... it's all stuff we're learning in AP US History..except that in History we're about 50 years ahead. so i'm basically learning everything three times. it's stupid. i almost ditched the second half of today, because i was so sick of everything there. and that's crazy for me to even think about doing, considering i haven't missed a day in almost 4 years. stupid bastard.
-zach
regained a friend today. such a great friend to have once again. the best i've ever had, really..and the best i ever will have. she's so perfect in every way..a complement each other in every way necessary. took a hiatus from each other for a couple months, to sort out individual lives..but it seems our paths have crossed again, just like we always knew they would. in a way, it was pearl jam that brought us back together again. the seattle shows gave us something to talk about. thank you pearl jam, for ending the 2 months and a day in which i couldn't hear myself talk. she was down today, however, as we all are sometimes, and i had the opportunity to help her out. sometimes it's nice to feel wanted, to feel loved.
these past couple of weeks we've been studying poetry in my American Literature class. it pisses me off, analyzing someone's work like that.. so before class today i wrote "POEMS ARE NOT MEANT TO BE DISSECTED. -ZDS-" on the whiteboard at the front of the class. the teacher, a real hard-ass southern import, was not too pleased at the sight. it stayed up on the board though, probably just because she's anti-censorship and all that jazz. she never writes on the damn board anyway.
i've been wondering what it takes to become human. whether it's an inherent trait, or if you have to find it somehow. that might not make much sense, but in the name of complete honesty, hardly anything i ever make much sense in the way that it was intended. that's life.
nobody expects perfection. i just want to live my life..
i wrote down the lyrics to NIN's "HURT" today...i'm going to give them to a departing friend in the morning.
i mentioned her in my post yesterday..'the friend that just wasn't meant to be'. well..a week ago today, i was at work when one of her friends came in. she asked if i had a minute to talk, and since i wasn't busy, we walked out to the parking lot. for the next fifteen minutes i was bitched at by a girl who was biased in every single way against me, without even being able to get a word in edgewise to defend myself. stupid teenage girls.
fuck high school, too. it's all bullshit. the class i mentioned above.. American Literature... it's all stuff we're learning in AP US History..except that in History we're about 50 years ahead. so i'm basically learning everything three times. it's stupid. i almost ditched the second half of today, because i was so sick of everything there. and that's crazy for me to even think about doing, considering i haven't missed a day in almost 4 years. stupid bastard.
-zach