Bye, Bye Mima

[Smirks]

This morning at 8:20 am eastern time my grandmother passed away. This was my father's mother and this is the first of my grandparents to die. I used to go to her house every Sunday to eat her wonderful home cooked meals. The last Sunday I ate there was July 7th. It hasn't really hit me yet that she's gone, but I'm sure when it does it's going to be a terrible day.

So, Mima, if you have the ability to read my thoughts, then please read this one: I love you, and miss you already. I know it's only been an hour, but it feels like forever.

[panther-girl]

oh chris, i am so sorry.
I don't have any grandparents left at all but I think about them all the time...usually with a smile
because they were all so special.
If I walk into a shoe repair shop I immediately think of my grandpa who repaired shoes. He died when I was under 10 but
it always brings me back....
My grandma was the best cook...she made special things that cannot be duplicated....turkish delicacies...
My other grandma was a cheater at card games and very sneaky and hilarious.....
My other grandpa had an American flag attached to a fan that would wave when a closet door was opened.
He was an artist and he was so proud to live in the United States.
He would make pepsi and milk for me when I was little (!)

I hope the sweet memories you have of your grandma bring you great comfort and warm feelings...
She will always be with you ...
hugs to you....
p-girl

[Seany]

are with you now...sorry for your loss. It probably won't hit you until you get home after the funeral or maybe on one of those Sundays you mentioned but its best to look back at all the good times.

[13throwcenter]

It's been 16 years and two days since my grandpa died of cancer. I remember the last time I saw him alive, in his hospital bed... I walked into the room after taking that 6 hour trip and he looked up and said "Hi Little Sandi" (yeah yeah I was named after my ma) I think he died about an hour later. I loved my grandpa so much because even when I felt NOBODY loved me when I was a kid, I always knew my grandpa did.

Well Chris... I guess we now know why you *really* weren't supposed to come to the convergence, right? My advice? Let yourself feel whatever emotions you feel... just let it happen. Feeling is part of the experience of life. Don't deny what you feel. Ever.

Rest in peace, Grandma Smirks.




"If anybody ever tells you you can't change the world.... fuck 'em." ~EV

[wannasurf]

How fortunate that you have/had the experience of knowing your grandparents. Live turns on a dime, seems like every once and a while we get a nudge about that. My thoughts are with you. If you have the "Oh Brother Where Art Thou" soundtrack, this would be a good time to listen. Although PJ is my first choice usually, there is something about bluegrass/gospel music that purifies.

[corduroykate]

im sorry chris [sad]
although deaths are sad things
make sure that you dont forget to celebrate the wonderful life that your gramma had
im sure that she woudl want to see you smiling and remembering happy memories
(((((((((chris)))))))))
-kate-

[Tiger the Lion]

Sorry man...I lost my last grandparent a long time ago, but I know how it feels...it sucks...

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[reallygroovN]

((((((((((((chris))))))))))))

sorry about your loss, smirks /images/frown.gif i have no more grandparents left...although my grandmothers were my best friends at different parts of my life...and i still feel that they are with me. when ever i feel i need a hug from my nanny gin, i put on the ring she gave me...she was the best, so kind, funny, strong and caring. she is my hero.

when ever i had to deal with my husbands nastyass grandmother (who is still nasty and alive), i would call up my nan and tell her how much i loved her and appreciated her...im glad i got to do that.

[bluecow]

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(((((smirks)))))

[mensane]

so sorry smirks....my nanny died just over a year ago..but she had been "gone" for almost a year due to the effect the cancer had on her mind. it really hasnt hit me yet because i havent been to her house since the funeral. i call my grandaddy sometimes but it isnt the same. "nanny" is still listed as the number on speed dial.

just keep remembering all the wonderful things about her and how much you love her. she will always be with you, just in a different way now.

..i'm through with screaming....

[brokenarrow]

I'm so sorry about your Gram.
(((((((((((((((((((((Chris)))))))))))))))))))))))

[vitolochica]

I'm so sorry (((((Smirks)))))

A river of salt...I'm running through you like the Nile through the desert....

[jamijams]

oh Chris, I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts as is your family, and I am sure she can read your thoughts, and she will be with you when you need her. ((((((((((smirks))))))))))

not all things that are faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced~j.baldwin

[kcycledelic]

Keep all of your best memories ... & have no regrets. All of my grandparents are dead -- they're simply gone from a state of becoming to a state of being.


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A horse can tell you a lot of things ...

[baccusgrrl]

Smirks,
I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I recently found out that my only grandfather has been given less than two years to live and I'm heartbroken. I understand what you're feeling but, not to the complete extent. Be strong carry her in heart always.

[luv2rok]

sorry to hear this news.Think about her often and smile at what a great life she had. /images/smile.gif

I will hold a candle,till it burn's up my arm

[RogueTrader]

If all of her grand kids are like you Chris, I am sure she passed peacefully and without a care in the world. She would be proud of you and the things she taught you.

It gets easier and the good thing is that only the best memories remain. She'll always be with you.

M

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[margaret ann]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I've only known one grandparent in my life, my dad's mom. My other grandparents were all gone before I was old enough to know or even remember them. I don't know how I'll feel when my ma'am maw passes. But I already have great memories about her that I know I will always have with me:)

[jennie10]

/images/frown.gif/images/frown.gif/images/frown.gifI'm sorry (((((((Smirksie))))))) my thoughts are with you~~~~~~~

"The doctors are running out of patients. I ran out of patience a long time ago." Henry Rollins

[anescence]

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(((((((((Smirks)))))))))

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My mind not only wanders....it sometimes leaves completely /images/crazy.gif

[eddieiscute]

My heart, and thoughts are with you. I have no grandparents or parents, and I miss them very much. (I never knew my real grandmother, she died when I was very little)
You know what I did? I made like a journal of all the things I could remember about all of them, and if I think of something I didn't put in there I add it. That way I'll always remember.

If You Say So!

[edvedderismyhero]

Nothing gold can stay, which is what I learned when my grandma died...its going to be terrible for a while, but I promise, things get so much better. Just being with family helps alot.




Nothing Gold Can Stay

by Robert Frost

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay



Stay strong

Lauren

Fuck the talking lets start rocking--EV