"Solitude"

[Plaidsurfshorts]

Hate to bring everyone down to start the day, but in the past 48 hours I have been plagued with two of the "quieter" yet ugly feelings -- doubt, and perhaps even more so, loneliness. With that said, I dedicate the following to any of the Three Fish fans in these parts, or to anybody who needs to hear it.

"SOLITUDE"
Lyrics: Robbi Robb
Music: Jeff Ament

Dawn breaks, I am alone
I'm awake, eyes unopened
Half in the dark, half in the room
Half in the light sealed by your womb

Sail through my eyes out in the dark
Oceans of sighs adrift in her bark
Islands lay scattered, island won't talk
Life hardly matters here in the dark

I want you in solitude
I need you in solitude
I want you in solitude
I haunt you in solitude

Once a jester in circles of friends
Spoke in whispers, starwords and gems
See to my scars, make them mend
Adrift on her bark, once was a friend

Sail away, I sail away
I sail nowhere, nowhere, nowhere
Hear a laugh through the air
Down from the past into my lair

I want you in solitude
I need you in solitude
I want you in solitude
I haunt you in solitude

I want you in solitude
I need you in solitude
I want you in solitude
I haunt you in solitude

.............................


"What is a million people...listening...to your music?" - JA, "SVT".

[blue_rain]

ok..i think i'm going to cry now (seriously)
((plaids))

~*~http://www.angelfire.com/la/ament~*~

[Plaidsurfshorts]

(((blue)))

"What is a million people...listening...to your music?" - JA, "SVT".

[Ger]

Loneliness...........can help us look at feelings a little closer, I know it does for me. That's exactly why I am here this morning. & to read this post of yours, right here, right now...(ironically listening to Maynard singing "be patient") well, you have hit the nail right on the head.

(((((((((((((Sarah))))))))))))

Please rid yourself of those doubts, honey, ask your heart what it feels: I have been asking mine all weekend. Shit, if I was near ya, I'd ask you out for a coffee, babe!!

FishLove,
Ger


"She dreams in colour, she dreams in.........."

[brokenarrow]

Being lonely isn't always a bad thing. I agree with Ger, it gives us time to re-group and try to figure out what we're doing with ourselves sometimes. But when it's grey and cold, and we get that empty feeling it's sometimes hard to deal with......it's how I felt most of this weekend.

Funny, I find I can be surrounded by people sometimes and yet still feel lonely. Does that make sense to anyone? Does this ever happen to you? It's an internal thing, it's like being in a confused or frustrated state. Wanting to do things that I know I can't etc....having lofty goals but not setting them in motion...

[Ger]

Yup, alone in a crowd, seems to be an affliction common to so many of us. I guess it depends on what the lofty goals are & what you want to set in motion, babe. I still think we can do anything we set our minds to...it's SOOOO hard, heaven knows I'm working on that right now.

Sorry you are feeling you can't do whatever it is you can't. That sucks. Hope your confusion/frustration evens out (it's a precious thing to bear) very soon. Anything we can do to help you out...anything.

I'm around here for a little bit yet.

Love to you,
Ger
xoxoxo

"She dreams in colour, she dreams in.........."

[t_norris]

Hey Plaid:-)

That's a cool song. Three Fish rule stuff. Jeff can DO NO WRONG~! He MUST be the smartest man in the world hooking up with a guy named "Robbi Robb". Does anyone know if that's his Real name or his rapper name??? You think he likes Markie Mark?? I'm gonna start calling myself Teddi Ted. Then you ladies will NEVER be able to resist me!

Ted

[Ger]

And don't you even THINK of calling Ament Jeffy Jeff!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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You wreck me.

Ger

"She dreams in colour, she dreams in.........."

[brokenarrow]

actually, I'm not in a frustrated state for a change! Things have been going very well in terms of career change and all of that...

I felt shitty this weekend because of my cat being so sick and in the vets......I get very upset when stuff like this happens....but I love him so much and have been so worried!...he's doing better now, hence I feel alot better today too!

I was talking in general, it happens to me...feeling lonely but being surrounded by people. I'm what you would consider a serious daydreamer I guess. I realised it when I was little,...it would be one of the things written on report cards....

"Can do better work, has a problem with daydreaming"

or this......

"Feels the need to entertain and be the class clown....can't stop talking in class"

heh......heh...........

What a surprise huh?

[t_norris]

how's about Stoney Stone. He's BALLSY~! Or Geri Ger. I hear that's was Gerald Ford's nickname.

Ted

[Ger]

Aw, your poor kitty! I'm so glad he's better, & you too! Ah, we do tend to worry though, don't we?

Yeah!! Class clowns, they usually end up being the people the world hinges on ~ keep things light enough for us all to cope. You are a blessing, never think daydreaming is a bad thing. We all need dreams, to help us carry on!

Love you,
Ger

"She dreams in colour, she dreams in.........."

[Ger]

Actually, I always though Gerald Ford was a very honourable man, so thanks for the link. But Geri Ger ~ I dunno, I think I'd only let someone very close to me call me that.

By the way, are you Edward or Theodore? If you are Eduardo, I could use a massage. If you are Theodore, would that be after the Roosevelt?

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The Germeister
Geraldine

"She dreams in colour, she dreams in.........."

[t_norris]

Hey Geri Ger, you're a GENIUS~! No one ever thinks about the Edward thing. I'm Edward, after my dad. Who knows why they started calling me Ted? All I know about Gerald Ford was that he was always falling down on Saturday Night Live.

And I AM a great masseuse. I'll be over soon as this t-storm passes with my paddle and meat tenderizer:-)

Ted

[Ger]

There's something endearing about people who trip or fall, it shows they are vulnerable, but they always persevere.

Man, you're lucky I let you get away with that Geri Ger biz, Eduardo..this time......

Tsk, must you tell EVeryone about the paddle?

Ger

"She dreams in colour, she dreams in.........."

[vitolochica]

(((((((Sarah)))))))))) I love you.

Dici che il fiume, trova la via al mare, e come il fiume, giungerai a me...

[eddieiscute]

I wish I could send Jeff to ya!! How are you doing sweetie?
(Wazzzup1949) from that OTHER place!

If You Say So!

[RogueTrader]

Sweetie, never doubt yourself....you are equal to any task....

M

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Howard Roark laughed......

[anescence]

((((((((PSS)))))))) here is a poem by Bukowski that I found. It makes me feel alittle better when I'm having feelings like you are right now.

there are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late.
/images/smile.gif hope it helps you too /images/smile.gif


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My mind not only wanders....it sometimes leaves completely /images/crazy.gif

[csmooth24]

((((((((((sarah))))))))))

try keeping a /images/smile.gif on your face! works for me!

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"i don't wanna F*CK, i wanna feel..."

[Plaidsurfshorts]

Thanks so much for all your words, guys. The feelings are still sort of lingering today, but your messages have definitely helped alleviate some of the negativity. You never fail to make me smile /images/smile.gif and bring me out of the dumps.

(((You all}}}

"What is a million people...listening...to your music?" - JA, "SVT".

[ByzantineBug]

A sugar magnolia,..
what's it's beauty when no one can see
what's it's purpouse when no one can taste

Throw yourself out there Sarah,or else they'll all miss out

Awwww baby! /images/laugh.gif

[_sysiphus_]

Never, never, I repeat, NEVER, doubt yourself, babe! You've got no reason to. Hell, I'm the one who's been jobless for a month, so if you wanna hear doubt/despair then you come to ME, not vice-versa. As for the loneliness, remember, we're always here! /images/laugh.gif

"I thank you for helping me learn how to think, but I reserve the right to determine WHAT I think."

[mtgirl]

once again i am illegally using the gov't property, but i can't help myself! should have internet at home tonight, maybe tomorrow. but i wanted to say thanks for the dedication sarita! i miss you, i think about you always!

"life is one big math problem, and i suck at math" --poopster