Fate or Consequence??

[prism]

...okay, this is the strangest life that we lead....Sandi aka 13 and I were getting stoned and we had a discussion about fate or consequence as I was rambling on about how my Uncle and Aunt had gotten together, anyway we finished the bowl and headed over to the grocery store to pick-up dinner, as we were walking in I heard someonre say "Hi Nancy" I turned around and saw that it was the one guy in this entire world that I ever truly loved. I hadn't seen him in almost 3 years. so there I am stoned off of my ass and there he is (his blue eyes are burned into my soul yet again)well we made small talk and I found out that he has started drinking again after being sober for more that fifteen years. we are both 37. we talked for about 5 or 10 minutes...actually i have no idea how long we talked(Sandi some help here please?) anyway there HE was....and fuck i had though that I had gotten over him....shit I never will get over him....anyway we parted and, Sandi and I went into the store. After leaving the store on the way home I was trying to remember how long I had known him and then it hit me like a ton of bricks, it was exactly ten years ago tonight that I met him, May 25, 1991. Fuck, I am still shaking as i write this...and I keep tearring (tearing) up...it's all just too fucking strange, i haven't seen this man in 3 years and I just happen to run into him by chance ten years to the day since I met him....

what the fuck does this all mean???

and when in the fuck will I ever stop crying???

[baccusgrrl]

There are no coincidences. I'm a romantic at heart so I think fate is always dipping a hand in life. That's a wild story man. I'm not sure what to say. What does your heart say? Sorry, I'm feeling a bit ethereal tonight.

[prism]

my heart is telling me how much I still love him...he is not single however...god, I want to call him tomorrow...damnsitalltofuckinghell

[baccusgrrl]

That sucks!!!!! I'm sorry prism. I wish I could give you an answer here, sweetie.

[yer ardy]

it could be consequence...coincidence...twilight zone-ish...
it could be fate...destiny...kismet....

it was all timing...planetary alignment...and tidal scheduling....

all this doesn't help you, i know...
look at it this way: he said 'hi' - that's cool enough, for now. i can't get inside yer head priz..matters of the heart and soul are sometimes not to be analyzed, just taken for what they are...
destiny has an interesting way of working itself into our lives. and fond memories of someone, like you have for this guy, will always re-ignite all the emotions of what once was.

i don't think there *is* an answer to the why's and how come's regarding this, priz. it just is the way it is. it's gonna be alright....


>>>>ilovepearljam<<<<
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[prism]

oh ardy, i just don't know what to even think about this guy...to call him or not to call him...I must have listened to Zepplin's "Ten Years Gone" about a hundred times since last night....and the last lines of that song keep sticking in my head "oh darlin', hey yeah, oh darlin', I'm never gonna leave you, I'm never gonna leave ya....