Something I NEVER noticed in the Jeremy video

[meaningless]

So I turned on the tube today and was flipping channels when VH1 (tha bastards who DIDN'T play the DVD thang! Ah well, at least they don't have TRL) caught my eye. It was the like top 90 vids of the 90s... Jeremy was #7 and I happened to tune in for the top 10. I was watching this video and I noticed something for the first time. I'm sure everyone else already noticed it...

As a psych major who is absolutely done with classes (still have 2 papers to turn in, tho, but one is finished... Ha just had to celebrate for a sec)... I saw that on the blackboards in "jeremy's" classroom were a list of personality disorders and maybe anxiety disorders... It was going by real fast, of course... And I think there was a whole list of sort of contributing factors to anxiety or something... I dunno. I don't know which of my videotapes I have that video on, so it would be exhausting to try and find it to watch it. Hmm when I have time in my life, which I'm sure I will real f'n soon when i'm un or underemployed, I should try to make a list of what's on my videos.

Anyway, it adds that much more depth to the video, you know? I just always thought it was arbitrary writing on the board, don't know why i never bothered to look closer. Perhaps cuz in 92, when the vid premiered, pearl jam WAS my fave band already, but i was only 12, mmm k? I didn't think that deeply yet.

Yeah, it's interesting esp cuz the only real psych course I had this semester was psychopathology, so I'm all over those disorders. Plus I had my last exam for that class today. And today I was feeling mentally shitty. So it was just Nicole's Day o' Psychology Fun.

Anyone else notice this (even tho I opened this by saying everyone else probably has?) If so, could you elaborate on what exactly is written on the board? I won't try to forget it or try to erase it. Little stupid joke there.

Later,
Niko

"if just once... i could feel love... oh stare back at me, yeah..."

[Ger]

we can all go watch it at the ten club site under videos...
trippy to see it again -- i remember when it was rotating...wow...

love,
ger

"my eyes"

[NuclearTreeFrog]

the serpent was subtil
peer
genesis 3:16
described as...
bored
ignored
harmless
because I say so
black
numb
disturb
problem
wick-ed
90210
child
he said it didnt matter
the unclean spirit entered
erase
3:30 in the afternoon
an affluent suburb
64 degrees and cloudy



"this loneliness won't leave me alone"

[mtgirl]

haha you crack me up girl! mmmm k i didn't notice that before and it is very cool. and can i just say WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! for you and being done with classes! damn! i still have three weeks, no worries tho. ok well have a glorious last few weeks out there k?

cute boys make me wanna get drunk

[mtgirl]

huh? is that quoting the board? nice to see you treefrogger

cute boys make me wanna get drunk

[Phil]

I've noticed that... that video can be picked apart and discussed for hours on end.

[meaningless]

Yeah, that ain't the blackboard writing, that's the words that flash on the screen just by themselves. Of course, it's interesting in itself to see these all in one place too. Fuck. What an intense video. To say the least.

Hmm I may have to break down and attempt to find Jeremy on one of my tapes and look myself for what is all written on the board. The board in the classroom, in case I was being vague before. You know, there are blackboards in the classroom.

See? When I don't get real f'n specific, people misunderstand me. And people wonder why my posts are so long and detailed. Heh.

ONE PAPER LEFT TIL I'M "GRADUATED!" Unless I fail Psychopathology. I don't think I will. Below a C- is failing and from the grades i've seen, I have a C-, but i think all the other stuff that I didn't receive a grade for yet is better than that (I fucking hope!!) so hopefully I'm in the clear. Boy what the fuck would I do if I failed? It's bad cuz I did allright in college... I got two C pluses... one was in Astronomy but it was about like the earth and sun, and I thought it was gonna be like the stars, and otherwise it was a shitty class anyway, so I did bad. Plus it was my first or 2nd semester in college. And the other one was bullshit and everyone did bad in the class. It was during the summer on a program in London. WHo would do better than C plus work if they were in London? :) I don't know. Man I'd love to live in Europe.

Anyway, I digress.

I'm here to work on a paper.

Gotta go.
-Nicole

"if just once... i could feel love... oh stare back at me, yeah..."

[jamijams]

i watched that last nite too...couldn't stop thinking how *young* they all looked, and I did in fact notice those, but can't remember them right now /images/frown.gif

You bring about what you think about

[Plaidsurfshorts]

I noticed that and I almost puked because I recorgnized a lot of the symptoms in myself.

"What is a million people...listening...to your music?" - JA, "SVT".

[meaningless]

Yeah, well being a psych major was a blessing and a curse... I mean I could apply like every fucking disorder to myself. Okay not every one, but many many many. But then it all came together in the end and I said "this is bullshit! I think everyone can apply SOMEthing to themselves!" Fuck, I know i'm not "normal" and I know I have some serious issues, but if I really let myself get wrapped up in labelling myself with all those tags (which I did for a while... bad stuff), I'd have to commit myself to the mental hospital for eternity. Hey I've already been thru too many years of pills and therapy, and finally I said fuck it all... It didnt' help at all. Not that I'm much better now (but i've gotta give it time and i gotta fucking get the hell out of COLLEGE... one WEEK! unless i fail), but pills and therapists will oppress you. I don't think they ever let you get better. It's like once yr "depressed" or "borderline personality" (not saying anyone ever told me that, but I just guessed it myself) or whatever, you always are in their eyes. ANd you kind of get in the habit of trusting "professionals", so you'll never get better under their alleged "care"...

I dunno.

So don't let those symptoms get ya... You will RISE ABOVE.

-N

"if just once... i could feel love... oh stare back at me, yeah..."

[bluecow]

i do that too- i took a psych class, just like an intro to psych in high school last year, now taking developmental psych- and like any disorder i'm reading about i'll think i have it... even like the really extreme things, "oh my God, i have schizophrenia!"

i don't know... i think i'm just really paraniod.

[Plaidsurfshorts]

I hear ya.
I am allegedly clinically depressed and suffer from an anxiety disorder (the anxiety is actually more crippling), and I am seeing a therapist.
I feel worse than before all the pros stepped in. The only good thing is that I can take some sort of solace in the knowledge that it's not all a figment of my imagination.

"I was alone and far away / When I heard the band start playin'..."

[vitolochica]

I agree...it's very intense cinematography....

y para ser más franca nadie piensa en ti como lo hago yo aunque te dé lo mismo...

[NuclearTreeFrog]

ahh i see.

Life crisis
Anxiety disorders
envirornmental stress
Hereditary factors
Factors that affect...

those are the only ones i could make out.

"this loneliness won't leave me alone"