bluecow
04-05-2001, 02:41 PM
i have nothing to say... here's what is swimming around in my head right now.
i am so bored. i was reading some Bukowski yesterday and this one poem said something along the lines of only boring people can be bored... i guess i'm just a boring person.
i feel like i'm in such a rut right now... all i do is try to keep myself amused/ distracted until something interesting comes along, which isn't very often. i want to do something interesting, new and exciting and all that shit... 3 weeks left this semester... don't know if that's good or bad cuz then i'll just have to go home and try to get a job as a waitress at eat n park and pretend to be nice to people so i'll get tips.
i think i have anger problems... hehe, well like, anyone i see just pisses me off... i really don't like people very much, they all seem so fake and ignorant (none of you, of course).
why do i always seem to come here when no one is around?
again, where is poopy?
it really pisses me off... well, see, i'm pretty shy/ quiet, and people think they're being funny and they'll say like, "come on carrie, would you shut up! you haven't let me get a word in edgewise!" (i hate that saying too... how can you put a word edgewise?) i've decided though that i shall be less shy by just trying to be myself... i have different facades for everyone, every situation, my mom's always telling me that i need to smile more, be more pleasant to people. but that's just not me... i don't see anything to smile about, why should i just to appease other people.
and now i see that poopy has returned and i am off to answer some life questions. (is it weird that i have two windows of this site opened?)
i am so bored. i was reading some Bukowski yesterday and this one poem said something along the lines of only boring people can be bored... i guess i'm just a boring person.
i feel like i'm in such a rut right now... all i do is try to keep myself amused/ distracted until something interesting comes along, which isn't very often. i want to do something interesting, new and exciting and all that shit... 3 weeks left this semester... don't know if that's good or bad cuz then i'll just have to go home and try to get a job as a waitress at eat n park and pretend to be nice to people so i'll get tips.
i think i have anger problems... hehe, well like, anyone i see just pisses me off... i really don't like people very much, they all seem so fake and ignorant (none of you, of course).
why do i always seem to come here when no one is around?
again, where is poopy?
it really pisses me off... well, see, i'm pretty shy/ quiet, and people think they're being funny and they'll say like, "come on carrie, would you shut up! you haven't let me get a word in edgewise!" (i hate that saying too... how can you put a word edgewise?) i've decided though that i shall be less shy by just trying to be myself... i have different facades for everyone, every situation, my mom's always telling me that i need to smile more, be more pleasant to people. but that's just not me... i don't see anything to smile about, why should i just to appease other people.
and now i see that poopy has returned and i am off to answer some life questions. (is it weird that i have two windows of this site opened?)