the world must be ending...

[quintastic]

i'm actually posting on my own rather than replying to someone else. i don't believe this has ever happened before on this board,
and i think only once before on the other board. i'm feeling rather bold today, so i thought i'd take this opportunity to speak up. see,
i'm pretty sure i have social anxiety disorder. i've not been diagnosed because i can't bring myself to go talk to a doctor. funny how
the nature of the problem itself is what keeps me from getting any help for it. anyway, i think this little problem of mine is going to
keep me from coming to the seattle jammer meeting this summer. my boyfriend is moving to portland in june, and he promised we
would drive up to seattle sometime when i visit him. i was thinking about going the last weekend in july so i could go to the convergence,
but i'm not sure i could handle it. i think you guys are all great and i'd love to meet you, but knowing me i'd go up there that weekend,
stand outside whatever place you're all at looking in at you and be unable to go in. most of the time i don't even feel comfortable posting
messages here, so i doubt i could talk to you in person. so now you've heard my sob story. respond if you like. tell me to just deal
with it, people really aren't that scary (i tell myself that everyday), go get help (my boyfriend has been telling me that for months and it
hasn't worked yet), or quit whining. whatever. i'm not sure anything will help until i decide i'm ready to confront this. thanks for
listening, though.

amanda

"my body's nobody's body but mine, you run your own body, let me run mine" -ev

[Phil]

Well, just think about it... you might decide you want to come after all, and then you can take it slow... maybe meet a few people at a time. Not that I'll be there, unless many circumstances fall into place, but I figured I'd post anyway....

((((Quin))))

[yer ardy]

...hey quin...
some people will make light of this, some won't understand the way you feel, some people can't imagine what you must be going thru. others will understand, others will sympathize, others will have their opinions, their fix-its....

that's the beauty of this world, there's lots of different people in it. and you have just as much right to be here, to exist, to thrive, to feel however you want to feel....just as anyone else does.

cut yerself some slack. the road to healing begins with just one step. take that step however it makes you comfy...and realize that, as scary as it seems, the people involved with pearl jam, the jamily, jammers, fans, whatever you want to call them, are the nicest people on the planet. you think about coming to seattle, we'll take it from there /images/smile.gif...

i'll stand outside with you...

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~there's still time to change the road you're on..