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[ishmaelape]

[vitolochica]

Ishy I have been thinking alot about you lately, something told me that you weren't ok, just this feeling that I've been geting lately; if I had your number I would have called you a while back....now I know why, my gut instinct is hardly wrong. Sweetheart, I don't know what happened to you today, but just know that I love you and that I care about you deeply. I am glad that you are safe at home instead of a place where people don't return.

The smoke will blow over soon and the air will be clear, just be strong and know that there are people here who love you ok John? I've pm'ed you my number in case you need someone to talk to, feel free to call me anytime, I'll be here to pick up the phone. ((((((Ishy)))))))

y para ser más franca nadie piensa en ti como lo hago yo aunque te dé lo mismo...

[13throwcenter]

there comes a time in your life when you have to do what is right for YOU, regardless of whether it is right or wrong... perhaps what you are struggling with is needing to determine your *own* right and wrong... not simply adopting the right and wrong we are spoon fed from birth.

You know I am here for you, just say the word.




~.~.~.~.~
And the rivers shall open for the righteous, someday.

[csmooth24]

keep your head up ishy...stay on the right path for you and things will turn for the better!



~chris
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[jennie10]

Getting drunk won't fix anything. It will just make you barf. I'm not trying to be sarcastic either. I don't drink or do any drugs. And I've never thought about that as a solution to any of my problems. I just have to sort those out in my head and get through them the best I can.

~"When I am depressed, I don't wish for happiness. I just try to slug it out against the bastard and hope I prevail"~

"The doctors are running out of patients. I ran out of patience a long time ago." Henry Rollins

[reallygroovN]

i think its pretty neet that you want to take the other path...although i would caution you against being self destructive. being afraid of the "what ifs" can be as oppressive as living your life always doing the "right" thing...in fact one leads to the other.

i say dress warmly and appropriately and take a nice long hike on the path less traveled...be careful and wise, but take a chance /images/smile.gif

[pearlmelon]

Oh, Ishy...It makes me feel so bad to know that you are feeling this way. Whatever happened to you today, trust me, it's not worth it...Remember what I told you...NO WORRIES!!! I wish you were on aim right now, but you're not, so I am getting worried. :(
...If you're around & lurking, please sign on to aim so we can talk.
(((((Sweet Ishy)))))


"Who taught that guy to stage dive feet first?...Only licensed stage divers from now on."

[Not_Trapped]

I think that anything is always the right thing if it feels right.

--dominic

staring blankly back at you

[Beta]

I hope everything goes ok with you.
no self destruction, it's not worth it.
Stay strong!

(((((ishmaelape)))))

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[Phil]

I thought that was a pretty cool story except for the fact that that path sounds pretty dangerous. Reminded me of Robert Frost:

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


I like the idea you have, Ish, but don't go up on any mountain, cause if I see a headline on the news: "ISHMAELAPE EATEN BY BEAR ON FORBIDDEN MOUNTAIN" I'm gonna be royally pissed /images/wink.gif

Seriously, I love the idea, and maybe it wouldn't hurt to do something out of character... it can be theraputic. But there's a difference between out of character and dumb.

Good luck, bro/images/cool.gif

[mtgirl]

hey ish, sorry you're feeling shitty n stuff kid. all i know is the more you do what you think is right, the better everything will be in the end. i really think it's true, so dat is my opinion. but everyone is human and sometimes you have to let things go to retain your sanity. hang in there you.

cute boys make me smile

[yer ardy]

{{{ish}}}

everyone has dabbled in doing the wrong thing once or twice in their lives, i know i have...even when you know it's wrong, you get a charge out of being dangerous and irresponsible for a change...i think that's quite normal, actually.

find a safe place to go, search your soul (as 13 would say)...
you are a great person from what i've learned about you....
self destruction is counterproductive....

chin up...there are lots of people who believe in you
and care about you and want you to know that...


@>-->----
~there's still time to change the road you're on..

[yelloledbetter]

((((((((((Ishy))))))))))

That poem that Phil posted was in the valedictorians speech at my graduation. I have tried very hard to adopt that way of thinking, but I seem to always do what's right for others and not form e. Lately I have decided that I need to do things for me...what will make me happy!! :)