Friends of 13 **READ** :)

[Phil]

Everybody let 13 know how you feel... a few words, a piece of poetry, some song lyrics, naked pictures of Mike..... anything.

EVERYBODY sign this /images/smile.gif

Angel, Angel

Shadows fall
On your face
Emotions fall oh-just a trace
Got your pain
You hide it well
Wish you'd give your pain to me
Me
Take those dreams
Ressurect them
Raise your arms to the sky
Don't give up and
Don't give in
And don't you ask me why

Angel, angel
Don't fall to Earth cause it's gonna be okay
You can break away
And angel, angel
Don't shed a tear cause it takes away
Ripples the surface of your perfection
Hey, hey

Misery comes
Misery goes
It's all part of life, you know
Take my hand
I know you can
Rise, rise, rise to the sky
Rise again

And if you fail
Well I'll be there
To pick you up
Anytime and
Anywhere
Some things change
Or stay the same
Still the sun sets
Still the clouds rain
Time goes by
For you and I
Angel, angel you'll get by
You'll get by

Angel, angel
Don't fall to Earth cause it's gonna be okay
You can break away
And angel, angel
Don't shed a tear cause it takes away
Ripples the surface of your perfection
Hey, hey

And I'll love you so
Close to me I'll hold
You
Just can't let you
Go, go
Angel, I hope you know
Know
You and I can survive.

[Do_the_Evolution]

We love you 13, thanks for everything you've done for us!!!!!!!!

People are people... so why should it be? That you and I should get along so awfully? DM

[Plaidsurfshorts]

Sandi,

I've been hearing things and right now it doesn't sound good. PLEASE, PLEASE be alright... I'm a bit tongue-tied right now, sorry...

God, Sandi... Despite everything you may be thinking and feeling right now, there are people who love and care about you and who would be lost without you. All of the Jammers owe you so much for hooking us all up and really turning us into a family in the truest sense of the word. But most importantly, there is Asher... You have a beautiful son. If nothing else, please know that he needs a mother and that you are that woman -- you are his flesh and blood. Nobody can replace you. Nobody can take that away from you. If whatever is going down tonight has anything to with what we discussed last week, YOU CAN AND WILL OVERCOME IT!! You are a wonderful, strong person.

Please take care of yourself...
You are in my heart and thoughts.

(((13)))

Love,
PSS/Sarah

"What is a million people...listening...to your music?" - JA, "SVT".

[ProfessorFrink]

Once again I turn to Gord Downie for appropriate sentiments:

Emperor Penguin

http://www.thehip.com/imagepp/penguin.jpg

I like the tone of your trumpet
C'mon let's spill some paint
Let's raise a glass of milk to the end of another day
And to the kiss that's still intangible
The kids are alright just unmanageable
They won't do a damn thing you say
Your voice is all detached on a radio-wave breeze
We have another caller with a bachelor degree
Talkin' alien invasion as the only chance for unity
Well sorry to interrupt you caller
But that's a physical impossibility

You'd be tossed up or wash up
The narrator relates
In a Spartan Antarctican walk for many days
Meet with Emperor Penguin devotion to the egg
And their women are swimming from half an ocean away

Don't sound so detached this is you and me
Just give me your opinion before you turn to leave
But your crust is just incredible
The radio was edible
When you said don't wipe your asses with your sleeves
You're a physical impossibility

[DeliveredWings]

Sandi,

I hope you know how much you mean to so many people. When we found out something was wrong we went crazy trying to connect with you somehow. As one of your newer friends I don't have alot of insight to offer, just know we love you and are thinking about you. I will say a prayer for you tonight.

Love,
Natasha

[Highway23]

you know what...if I could tell you what and how I feel about Sandi, then I would be world's greatest writer....but I'm not...but I'll do my best....

You need some help? Then she's there. I have never met anyone on the board as closely related to me...in so many ways. Sharing common ideas, thoughts, perspectives....and the ones we don't, then we always respect the others. There has never been a harsh word between us, and there never will be. I sent her a cd earlier in the year, and it is a symbol of what Life is....Pearl Jam has opened many perspectives in our lives, and we are lucky enough if we can recognize these and make use of them. Sandi has. All of you here know her, by her attitude, by her leadership. When I meet someone, i can quickly tell who is a leader, and who is a follower. There is nothing wrong with either, but I know that Sandi IS a leader. Without a doubt.
Things happen to the best of us, and Sandi and I have talked about what we share as people...problems, traits, there's a lot of stuff that I have told her that I wouldn't tell just anybody, and I know that she wouldn't either. Gaining trust is one of the most important things that you can give to a person...a friend...and I trust Sandi, and I hope that she trusts me....I have always stuck by her, and been there for her when I could and was needed....and here I say that I will be there, along with many others, no matter what the problem....with help and a shoulder to lean on you WILL ALWAYS have a person to talk to, and will always have our love, especially mine.

You take care doll, keep your head up...and give ol' Boulie a smile...and know that we are hugging you right now, as tight as we can...you are not alone, and never will be....

Love always and forever, Jake

There's a nothing in something, and a something in nothing. Nothing is nothing. -just made it up :)

[yer ardy]

"Friendship is different from all other relationships. Unlike acquaintenceship, it is based on love. Unlike lovers and married couples, it is free of jealousy. Unlike children and parents, it knows neither criticism nor resentment. Friendship has no status in law. Business partnerships are based on a contract, so is marriage. Parents are bound by the law, as are children. But friendship is freely entered into, freely given, freely exercised.

Friends never cheat each other, or take advantage, or lie. Friends do not spy on one another yet they have no secrets. Friends glory in each other's successes and are downcast by the failures. Friends minister to each other, heal each other. Friends give to each other, worry about each other, stand always ready to help. Perfect friendship is rarely achieved, but at its height it is an ecstasy."

sandi....you are surrounded by your friends here...
we love you, we miss you and want you to be okay...
take time...all the time it takes....
i understand and am always here for you...

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if i had one dollar for every brain you don't have, i would have one dollar

[Plaidsurfshorts]

Hey again, Sandi!
I was re-reading this scribbling of Jeff's again tonight and I knew just who to dedicate it to... /images/wink.gif

Ten Club Newsletter #13

What's in a number?

When I was a small boy, growing up on the northern plains of Montana; (7 miles in the snow every day,...ha,ha) my mom told me all kinds of stories about superstition, particularly ones surrounding the number 13. Mostly, I sided with my dad: "Hogwash!"
Until one chilly afternoon in October of 1972. I was 4 weeks into my job, delivering the "Grit", a national weekly newspaper. I made a nickel profit per newspaper from each of my 34 customers. That allowed me about 10 packs of baseball cards, 4 Orange Crush sodas, 2 Spiderman comic books, and a sack of Jolly Rancher candies. I was living the high life.
Just a few delivered papers into my fifth week out, I crossed one of the 3 paved streets in Big Sandy, near the butcher shop; when a small twister hit me, and knocked me off my homemade metallic green faux-Schwinn 3-speed and spilled 128 newspapers into the wind creating a 15 foot high paper funnel. I cleaned myself off, proud of my soon to be huge scabs on my elbows and hand, partly happy that I was done with my route.
Until my dad told me I would have to deliver papers for the next 4 weeks for no salary to pay for the lost papers.
Harsh reality for a 9 year old. Oh, yeah, it was Friday the 13th.
Jeff Ament
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All the best,
Sarah

(((13)))
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"What is a million people...listening...to your music?" - JA, "SVT".

[eddievedderrocks]

Sandi...i know you like this song...put it on and listen to the lyrics...


You've got a friend ~ Carol King

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
Yes I will
You've got a friend

If the sky up above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep you head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you will hear me
Soon you'll hear me knocking on your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
Yes I will

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
Yes I will
You've got a friend

Ain't it good to know
You've got a friend
Yes it's good to know
You've got a friend
I'm so glad I've got a friend in you
And I know you're glad
You've got a friend in me
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend
You've got a friend in me
And I've got a friend in you
You've got a friend in me now
And I'm glad I've got a friend in you
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend
Ain't it good to know
Ain't it good to know
Ain't it good to know
You've got a friend




"its..to feel y'know...not what to feel, but to feel something"

[sigh_eternally]

I'm not much of a writer, so I'll keep this short....

Sandi, ....please feel better soon. We all love you over here, and we're going to be pulling for you. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers, and hope that everything gets better in your life. You've given so much to us, now we will return the favor with our love. WE LOVE YOU! PLEASE BE SAFE!!!!

(((((SANDI)))))

-Scott

[yelloledbetter]

Oh Sandi....God, I don't know what to say. I love you! You have touched my life in the biggest way. Whatever you need, just ask, I'm there for you just like you were there for me.
Love you....
Lisa

[panther-girl]

To my dear 13th Row Center......sweet Sandi....
I just came upon this post ... I don't really know what's going on, but I wanted to add my thoughts....
you are such a sweet and special person.....when you posted after seeing your Bellingham show...
your being was changed...and we were changed for having met you...
I'm not great at putting my feelings out there, but I need you to know that I care so much about you!
I really understand what you must be going through and I hope you'll come back soon and tell us all is alright....
take care and be strong...love always, p-girl

[prism]

Sandi, you know that I adore you and I know that you'll get through everything okay....take your time, rest and do what ever it takes to get feeling better...and know that I'm here for you 24/7

lovies,
prism

[poetrywriter]

I don't know 13 very well..I am a bit of an outsider. But I hope that
she feels better soon. I will keep a good thought for her this weekend.

[luv2rok]

What can i say? I started all this mess by posting that sandi was leaving us forever.I was worried about her,because of the e-mail she sent to me last night.
Something is terribly wrong and she won't tell me about it.I guess i'm no longer considered her friend anymore.I hope she get's through this difficult time o.k.
Someone called the police on her at about 5:30 p.m.(Washington)time.Can you believe that?She called me and asked me if i was the one who called them,and i told her no,because it wasn't me.I live in minnesota.What am i gonna do,call the bellingham police department from all the way out here?Well needless to say the cops were knocking on her door as she was speaking to me,and she just said to me that she couldn't talk and that she wanted to kill her self.so she hung up the phone and that's the last i have heard of anything.Something must be terribly,terribly wrong in her life.And i mean very wrong.Because this is not the sandi that i grew to know and love.
This is why i posted messages on here and on the cjwm message board last night.
Can u understand why i might be worried about her and upset?
Who is gonna run the jamily convergence in seattle in late july without her?
I have already bought my plane ticket. /images/frown.gif
Sandi,if you are out here and ever see this,i still love you and will never forget you.

Dan

Women Seem Wicked,When You're Unwanted....

The Lizard King

[reallygroovN]

like i said, no matter what....im here.

this too shall pass, and like eddie says, its gonna be ok (the crowd is singing it too, san) its gonna be ok, its all gonna be ok

i love you!
cath

[Beta]

Hey Sandi, I don't know what is going on, but I hope everything works out for you. Stay strong :)

Beta http://lenny.dyadel.net/dancer.gif

[M_F_Cecil]

hey you, me here....

I'm not sure what's up in your life right now, but I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you are well my friend, and I wish now that I could pop by with that bottle of wine more than ever. By the way, you never e-mailed me to let me know if you received the Rockfords show I sent you.

drop me a note, okay?

lotsa love

-Cecil


...That what you fear the most could meet you half way...

[edvedderismyhero]

Sandi--

We're all giving you the love and time that you need becuase from friendship, ap erson can get all the love in the world...
You're such a wonderful, energetic, charismatic person and a wonderful friend. We're all here for oyu if you need a person to talk to, whatever. LGive life time and all its problems will be sorted out...



Love
Lauren

Screws fall out all the time, the world's an imperfect place

[velcrow]

:)


comeback!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, what do you want, something profound in every verse? -eddie vedder

[_sysiphus_]

"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."

Sandi, though I consider myself a "newer" friend, I am your friend nevertheless. I followed you here and to CJWM because of your spunk, your character, and your genuine care and concern for all us fellow Jammers. What may now seem to be a terrible, tumultuous time for you right now will eventually turn into a moment of utter bliss and happiness. You must, however, get through this moment to get to the next. I am fully confident that you are strong and capable enough to handle this hurdle and I believe that you will overcome it. But, you are not entirely alone. You have a community of friends out here that love you and support you fully and are here to help you every step of the way.

Sending warm wishes and warm thoughts your way,
(((Sandi)))

~ Joanna

"I thank you for helping me learn how to think, but I reserve the right to determine WHAT I think."

[northwoodsamyII]

well, i think I've read all the posts about you now..wondering what how you got into your prediciment, knowing it doesn't matter- all that matters is that you are safe and warm today and always.....you have so much love and friendship here...let that be your comfort when you need it. I miss you already!!!! I miss you always!!! really- I do....

and a big hug (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((sandi)))))))))))) )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
and one of my famous old school smiles for ya :)

lots of love....
amy

TO MY FRIENDS, I'M NOT A DRUNK DRIVER...I'M PRESIDENT ELECT.

[jamijams]

you know I'm here sister

now go listen to TYAAM and know that we are ALL thinking of you, here at your side. write me, call me, whatever you need I'm here for you

love ya and I feel soo much better reading all these posts, you are a lucky lady with many great friends.



You bring about what you think about

[Baby Bowler]

we love you 13... ((((((sandi))))))

[bluecow]

((((((((((13))))))))))

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i want to taste
everyone i see

[csmooth24]

fellow bham jammer...((((((((((13))))))))))))...keep your head up...

~chris
http://www.culturedpearls.com/pearljam/images/alive2.gif

[RogueTrader]

Angel.....i always thought you were a horny little devil.....

M

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25 in 30 Days, Makes this room feel like home

[13throwcenter]

even angels get horny sometimes /images/tongue.gif


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What if the Hokey-Pokey *is* what it's all about?

[RogueTrader]

Yeah....that was my first thought when I got out of 'The Joint'......gotta get a chick and a hot cuppa joe.....

Seroiously, was there any record or anything?

M

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25 in 30 Days, Makes this room feel like home

[grungeulele]

Hey 13. :o)

I know that I haven't known you for a long time, but I do consider you a friend, as I hope you do me. I hope you're doing better, and my thoughts have been with you over the past few days. I just wanted to let you know that I think you are a wonderful person, and I always love reading your posts, and I thank you for letting me be a part of CJWM. You're one of the reasons why the Jamily is so great. :o)

Oh yes, and we should really talk more than we do!
(((((13)))))
-Rana

-Mike told me not to cut off my feet to play like him because it wasn't worth it.-

[Not_Trapped]

Sandi

:0)

Dominic

[13throwcenter]

"Not_Trapped"... now that made me smile.



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What if the Hokey-Pokey *is* what it's all about?

[vitolochica]

:)

Daylight fading come and waste another year. All the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear.

[anotherchild]

i saw vitolochica's signature and it made me think of this song.....but it's not even on the same CD....oh well, here it is:

All My Friends
Counting Crows
This Desert Life

Thought I might get a rocket ride
When I was a child
But it was a lie
That I told myself when I needed something good
At 17 had a better dream
Now I'm 33 and it isn't me
But I'd think of something better if I could
All my friends and lovers
Will leave me behind
And I'm still looking for a girl
One way or another
I'm just hoping to find a way
To put my feet out in the world
Caught some grief from a falling leaf
As she tumbled into the dirty ground
And said I should have put her back there if I could
Well everyone needs a better day
And I'm tryin' to find me a better way
To get through the things I do and the things I should
All my friends and lovers
Will leave me alone
To try to have a little fun
One way or another
I just wish I had known
To go out walking in the sun
To find out if you were the one
does it make you wanna come a little closer now?
and did you want to dance with me?
Did you wanna hum a little harder now?
can you see her?
waiting there
can you see her?
because I'm almost there
can you see her
waiting there for someone like me
Well all you want is a beauty queen
But not a superstar
But everybody's dream machine
All you want is a place to lay your head
You go to sleep dreamin' how you would
Be a different kind if you thought you could
But you come awake the way you are instead
All my friends and lovers
They shine like the sun
Well I just turn and walk away
One way or another
I'm not comin' undone
I'm just waiting for the day
All my friends

[abramowp]

(((((SANDI))))))

luv ya!

[NuclearTreeFrog]

Find myself singing the same songs everyday
Ones that make me feel good
When things behing the smiles ain't ok

Around and over and in-between the seas
I need to be on top of a mountain
Where I can see everything
Cause this paranoia's getting old

Now as I open my eyes to start another day
I'm in a pile of puke
Empty bag of execuses
My love for friends and family
you know I need them

And under a sun that's seen it all before
My feet are so cold
And I can't believe that I have to bang my
Head against this wall again
But the blows they have just a little more
Space in-between them

Gonna take a breath and try again.

"There are times when the wolves are silent, there are times when the moon howls. "

[Aye Davanita]

Sandi my sweet sister,..
you know I love you,.. when I needed you were there,.. you have to be one of the most amazing people i've hever had the pleassure of knowing.
I haven't been around much and I don't know what is going on.
but i seen this and had to let you know how i feel.
i love you sister.
and your always in my heart.
your friend
Tina